Quiet time

It is so easy to get caught up in the doing that one forgets to be.  Even good doing needs to stop now and then so one can just breathe.  I've been so wrapped up in my process that I realized I was not really paying attention, just playing the game.  So I deliberately stopped for a week to just notice.   To let things rise up to be seen, to swim in awareness without disturbing it.  I will not talk about some big ta-da breakthrough...I will just say that it was nice to recognize each and every thought and feeling and just let them go.  Yes, I see that I can be mean.  Yes, that was a nice thing I did.  Yes, there's that fear again.  Yes, compassion, I see you.  Yes, I notice I feel stuck.  Yes, yes, yes.  But no doing.

So last post I identified fear as public enemy #1 but I have not yet created a physical metaphor.  I do, however, know exactly what it looks like and one day I will manifest it, but for now it is enough to see it clearly in my mind.  To be honest, I have no idea how to combat it.  I have no idea how to subdue it, bring it under my control.  I have no idea how to weaken it and loosen its grip on my life.  But I do know that all is well...that what is right now, is, and I can live with it.  I will continue, for a while, to just let it be.  I will see it and know that my "I am" is bigger, better, stronger, than my fear.  And I will just abide in that.

Some of this was given me by a bird...a dove that has been coming to me for a couple of weeks, asking me to shelter it.  I finally gave in, acquired a cage, and brought it in.  Its tail has been damaged by a predator and it does not fly well.  Nor is it suited for "nature red in tooth and claw" as it is very fearless and trusting.  It is domesticated and has chosen to be protected by humans.  I will be its human and honor its fearless and trusting nature by developing more of that in myself.  Not by doing and fighting, but by being and accepting.  
The teacher will always arrive when most needed.

Sweet dove, I listened

I heard your plea and saved you

Or did you save me?