All things change, all things stay the same

It's been over two years now.  I just rediscovered and reread my blog from 2014...I like it.  I have since then made many discoveries...some changed my life, most didn't even create a ripple.  And outwardly my life looks just the same.  So what's the point?  None but to keep being.  Keep putting one foot in front of the other.  Keep seeing what there is to see and doing what there is to do.

I still have expectations stacked to the rafters.  I still get disappointed, confused, and fearful.  I still wonder if I make any difference at all to anyone.  And I still persevere in knowingness.  Gladly I torture myself with doubt and anxiety because it needles me to keep diving deeply into my own darkness, and there, I know, is where my treasure is.  I may never uncover it completely and that's okay..it's the knowingness that's important.

I am calmer, more appreciative, more accepting than ever before in my life.  I am able to forgive.  I can let things go.  I can talk down my ego.  The big prize...the unconditional love...still eludes me and occasionally I despair but, as I said, it's there in the darkness and, as I said, that knowingness is all important.  Hey, maybe a little patience has been learned as well!

Raven calls and calls

young hawk watches intently

shimmering sunshine